After doing apologetics for many years, I began thinking about the actual task of apologetics. I wasn’t winning souls for Christ, I knew that much. Contrary to what most preachers say about apologetics (Schaeffer, Warfield, etc.), I couldn’t see it as a prelude to evangelism. As if we’re clearing the intellectual muddle out of the unbeliever’s way, opening the straight and narrow path for his acceptance of truth. That didn’t square with what I saw happening.
I began to think of apologetics as a form of warfare – I gradually began to see myself as a knight in the democratic age, where we fought with words instead of guns. I saw myself as attacking the Devil’s strongholds and tearing down his talking points. But even that didn’t square with what I felt about my vigorous hobby.
Day in, day out, I’d do apologetics – in web-forums, chat rooms, through emails, and in whatever real life conversations I could get into. It was an obsession. If I wasn’t debating, I was reading, studying, striving to piece together my Christian worldview; sharpening my sword, as it were. I had no “life” (as moderns say it). My life was studying and debating.
It finally hit me that I was acting as if I thought God had honor and that His honor was being insulted by those godless heathen who dared utter their asinine arguments in public. They had to be brought low. They had to be rubbed out. They had to have their smug blasphemy utterly refuted and dissected in the arena of debate.
I lost my zeal for this sort of game though. I haven’t zealously debated anyone in years and couldn’t bring myself to read analytic philosophy if someone held me at gunpoint and demanded it. Is it because I don’t think God’s honor is daily being mocked by these heathen? No. I still believe that and I still think He deserves earthly champions who’ll fight for His honor just like we’d fight for the honor of our fathers and earthly kings if they were insulted.
I think I gradually become convinced that the unbeliever’s problem wasn’t intellectual in the least. It really isn’t. Since his problem isn’t intellectual, no amount of intellectual battling will help. No, what they really deserve (in most cases) is a good punch in the nose. In extreme cases, these blasphemers deserve death (according to the Bible itself). I can’t bring myself to bandy words with them because doing so, seems to me, dishonors God even more.
To sum it up, I think I could say that our Satanic culture churns out blasphemers by the thousands and it’s *that*…the Devil’s machine…that stands as one large, abomination that causes desolation. It’s *that* which must come down.
Every. Last. Bit. of. It.